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  The proposal was the most tempting that you/he/she was ever offered there.

  We would have started with ten scenes, correct to see how the relationship of collaboration would have been, and well you remunerate, around the triple one than I took with the Imperia, dopodiché we would be devoted to work on real films incentrati on me there, with semestral contracts, in which every time would be been able to see terms and conditions of the same again.

  The semestral contracts were fabulous. Primo because six months were not very binding they do soon to pass and if I/you was found badly me or I/you had received subsequently proposed more advantageous I would have been able to quietly change and to address elsewhere within little time. Besides I would have had to guarantee for the period of contract a minimum of thirty scenes hard, that was not a lot of.

  Ciliegina on the cake, the remuneration was enormous.

  I began in 2007 with an European remuneration of eight hundred to scene, therefore more or less European quattromila to film.

  Calculating that I did around the one hundred scenes the year, was a small fortune!

  We turned the first ten scenes; the director, the producer, the actresses, the employees, were all fierce ones of me.

  The beta period was finished, had signed my first semestral contract and I was to the seventh sky!

  Linda and I went to celebrate that evening in the most luxurious restaurant that we found within kilometers.

  Our efforts had finally given their fruits. You took the winds for one hundred of my earningses, a very tall percentage, if we also think about what I earned during evenings to the nights or events you launch that grew more always, but I didn't feel her/it to me to retouch her/it, it suited me this way.

  Between me and Linda there was only now a purely professional relationship. We had decided that if we had had to keep on collaborating, among us two the sex and every other type of involvement that it was not purely working it would be due to stop.

  I was sorry some lost possession that something magic that there was between me and her, but also to me it seemed the only possible solution to make to spin everything smooth and in the best of the ways.

  That was one of the last evenings in which Linda and I found again there to dine together as two old friends.

  In 2008 I was one of the most famous stars in Europe. It is to beginning 2009, with the victory to the AVN Awards, was among the most known stars of the world. My films sold to the great one, I received proposals on proposals that punctually Linda refused. I was faithful to the Doors du Ciel and they thanked me to them making me so much publicity and increasing me the remuneration.

  I had become their strong point, their actor more talentuosos.

  The women loved me, the men dreamt to become as me.

  I started to release interviews for important magazines or for of the local tv, I knew important people, I started to sponsorizzare lines of masculine intimate attire, a line of vibrators facts to image of my punishments autographed by me, developers, miraculous creams, inflatable dolls.

  I made evenings in discos and places" normal" and the fans were quite a lot, people that were wanted to make the photo with me, others that asked me to make him a test-tube, girls that volunteered me to make sex and to feel the shiver of the great porno actor.

  I knew the most beautiful and famous actresses of the industry of the porno, and when I say" I knew" I intend in biblical way, I swept her to me in every possible and imaginable position.

  Satisfaction was when I had to turn a scene with Sissi Bernaux. It had around the trentatrés, trentaquattro years, a legend of the porno, the most beloved and paid actress of the last decade; when I was adolescent I killed me of saws in front of his/her films, and it was there now, all for me, to fix me in the eyes while my cazzo filled her mouth.

  It was one of the most beautiful sweeps of all of my career.

  The world seemed to be to my feet, but it was a fictitious world, liar, very different from the real life.

  In 2009, note there was the boom. Linda gave me a contract with the United States. We didn't have intention to leave the Doors du Ciel, I undertook me to guarantee the thirty scenes of the contract trying to complete her first possible, then we embarked there on the first flight for USA.

  It was the attainment of that finishing line, of the title as best actor hard protagonist and of my contract with a house of American production, that made me reflect on my life and on thing you/he/she had become.

  To twenty-nine I already found me on the tallest peak of the world, and thing I had reached?

  All that earned money was not worth a lot then. I was busy practically every day of the year, I was around always between a resumption and a show in some local.

  I had bought a house, but I didn't go there to almost ever sleep. My life was in the hotels. I didn't have a rich wardrobe, few comfortable essential things to go behind himself/herself/themselves in the frequent ones you move. The things that I bought didn't give me satisfaction, I didn't care of anything of what it was material.

  I put what I earned aside, convinced that one day would have served me and I would have lived a calm life without thoughts.

  I thought about the future but I didn't enjoy me the present.

  My parents I had not felt them for a couple of years. From when you/they had discovered my job they didn't have of it more wanted to know about me, reaching even the point to change the telephone number to avoid that I called.

  They accepted however the account in bank opened to them name, because I could see the extracts accounts and every time that drew to that small fortune.

  I could go there certainly always to them, but I was very busy and then my pride you/he/she would never have allowed me him.

  I didn't care more than anything and of anybody, I could live very well without affections.

  The only my desire was to sweep, to sweep and still to sweep.

  The only person that had remained me was Linda, even if by now among us there was only a cold relationship of job.

  Lately it went out with a type, a kind of rock bankrupt star that once had a name.

  I don't know if has been him or if you/he/she has been too much guilt of the money, or even only of his/her rebellious nature. It is sure what Linda started to make use of drugs. It started for game to try. A draught during an evening in the disco where I had been invited; she followed me in every move of mine.

  Even it followed then a draught to go on and to bear the stress of particularly heavy days. At the end you/he/she was found again to go around always with his/her small mirror for the preferred makeup, perfect hideaway to conceal his/her secret.

  I tried to speak to her to make to understand her what was doing. It was as to talk to a wall. It didn't feel me, and it ended for incazzarsi.

  It said to be adult and vaccinated, that didn't need the nanny and that she was my agent, not my sister, tantomeno my girl, therefore casomai was her to owe him to hinder of my business not the contrary.

  I tried to talk to that bursted of his/her boy, worse that andar at night.

  I had also lost the last affection that tied me to this world.

  The problem of Linda became soon rather serious.

  It started to have problems of money, after all I was me that rich, she received only a percentage of my remunerations.

  Its vice had brought her to squander years of savings in parties, coke-party and good evenings. What had succeeded in putting aside was ended in dust, in the true sense of the word.

  His/her boy was a real leech. You made to pay tour and festicciole with his/her group of musicians cocainomani, it loved the beautiful life, the luxury, the beautiful cars, and it didn't even earn the beak of a money. All burdened on the shoulders of Linda that it seemed not to realize to be reaching the downfall.

  It started to ask me some loans, excuses it was invented, problems with the bank, relatives that were badly and they needed expensive cares.

  For a couple of times I prete
nded to believe her, then I started to turn her back. I wanted that it ended her/it with that history and that it immediately stopped her/it.

  I also volunteered me to pay her some cares in a center for the rehabilitation. The result they were a tide of insults and some threat.

  It was not the Linda that I knew anymore.

  Chapter 17

  Do you know qual'era my greatest desire in that years of great actor career?

  To make sex with an only woman to the time and preferably on a comfort bed.

  Normal people envy the actors hard, can sweep him a heap of women, they do what desire, and they are also paid to do him/it!

  Certainly it is not the most repugnant of the jobs, but also this has his/her negative sides.

  The things that I hated more were the gangs bang.

  A gang bang is a kind of marathon of sex where an only girl is usually swept by innumerable men that end then all to come her in face or on other parts of the body.

  It seems a figata he/she dictates so, but when there are in mean you understand that it is the ugliest thing and rompicoglioni of the whole world of the porno.

  You imagine a room. In this room there is a girl that if it is all right it is slightly nice, but it often deals with some half latrine. Until here any problem, the true trombatore is what succeeds in sweeping him whoever without work or aid of magic pilloline.

  In the famous room there is also the troupe, and for many possession an erection and to sweep before to other people it is already a problem, but not for you, to you it becomes hard however, you are a professional.

  You now imagine that in the room other men enter also.

  It doesn't usually deal with one or two people, for a gang bang that I/you/he/she am worthy of this name us take six, seven, up to winds, thirty men, and all they have to have their role in the great general orgy.

  It already starts to the matter to be different, you, the girl, the director and another pair of people but a beautiful there are not alone po' of people, all crowded in that room.

  When there is even group you find what speaks to yourself, what shoots wisecracks, what says vulgarity while broom, what not he lifts up him, what he throws a saw to your side, what asks if you/he/she can be had a pumps before entering scene to start the already beautiful work hello.

  In this whole country house, you have to stay assembled and to maintain the erection.

  Even you succeed there, but the erection must be fed, it doesn't stay so hard to life without having a some stimulus.

  You start to spippettarti as a crazy person, but you/he/she can be that for one as you, gotten used to sweep him every day of the big fighes that you/they make him the dirtiest things, the only hand you are not enough. We say however that you enough, you succeed in maintaining him/it hard for some.

  You need figa however, you cannot continue for ever indeed in that situation.

  You have need to insert him/it more and more times from some part.

  According to you, with an only girl, that at the most can grant a pair of holes, the mouth and, if he/she succeeds, a hand and thirty men all anxious ones to enter that desirous orifices, how many times and for how long will you succeed in possessing that girl, to graze the warm vaginal wall or to feel the soft one and dampness touch of a language on your chapel?

  Answer: for too much little time.

  You are there, you try sweep her/it, but you cannot be too much us, you are in so many, the director wants to see a continuous follow him of cazzi, it doesn't need to make not to even relax the girl for an instant.

  And then you seghi, you seghi the whole time, and do you say" when cazzo is my turn?" and even you bother yourself and the pea doesn't throw as before, but you has to make the arrival, the director wants to see a sprinkled of seed to cover the girl, all they are essential for the noble cause of the result of a grandiose gang bang.

  Do you think both easy to come with a saw and a pair of inserted for one that usually when it sweeps with a tipa if the stantuffa for a good oretta?

  At all!

  It is not easy for anybody, if he/she is thought then that if you delay in the arrival all the others they will precede you, and then you will also start to feel a certain characteristic aroma, not very delicate, consequence of the abundant presence of sperm more different people above to the girl.

  You try you to come this way.

  Yet," the show must go on", the professional cannot afford errors, I was the number one and I had to show him/it.

  There were also other factors that made often that type of job a hell.

  There are some girls that, or because they neglect some their personal hygiene, or because however they have some more perspirations" strong", they emanate some a little pleasant odors.

  Or there is that few experienced or esagitata, that you/he/she was made of rubber in some scenes drawn your cazzo as, not thinking that there they pass us an infinity of nervous terminations that you/they make certain movements, certain positions, really painful.

  In the last period I started to notice a lot the disadvantages of the porno. There were also the advantages however, I swept every day and I took a country house of money!

  Already, money that at the end I didn't know what stuffed!

  I lived alone, I could not have a life of couple.

  A couple of times I had some tales with some colleagues, but the thing didn't last so much then.

  What to tell out then some girls this world? If you said theirs that the porno actor did, or they stopped frequenting you, or they came with you to make himself/herself/themselves a sweep. Become then once famous, there was not even need to say him/it, they recognized me, and here that I was often exploited for being able to become one of the so many histories to tell to the friends.

  But I was not recognized by everybody, there were also those that you/they didn't know who ditches because you/they had never seen any porno, or however not so so many to remember himself/herself/themselves that face they had the actors.

  It was worse there also, because sooner or later I would have had to confess them of my past and above all of my present.

  You/he/she could not work.

  Even if had found a comprehensive girl, one of those series that want to do everything as are owed, one of those with which intellectually find yourself from god and even that was physically a crash - and here would be already a beautiful miracle, - a big background problem that introduced me from a certain of time remained always: the sex!

  Seem absurd, almost a paradox, but the greatest weak point of a porno actor of my level is really the sex!

  When you have gotten used to do something as it was a mechanical action, of the repetitive movements every day of your life, a job that for demand it plans yourself determined schemes in the mind, in the real life you don't abandon these schemes, but you do everything as you have gotten used to daily do.

  What does he/she want to say? He/she wants to say that when one like me broom with a girl, often, if not it always finds again him to live the sex as, it was on the set.

  Here there then that he starts to stantuffare, often also with violence, his/her own partner. Here that they start him to change four or five positions.

  The arrival almost always had to be in face and not all they approve this kind of thing. If the girl found again him to the sudden one the face stained with sperm, you/he/she happened that you/he/she could be become rabid and accordingly me incazzavo also me, and we ended with to instigate an awful quarrel where I gave her some finicky puttana, and I told her that you/he/she would have had to grow before ripresentarsi to me.

  Here that all becomes without feeling cold. By now I didn't know how to make the love anymore, I swept and enough! Mine preliminary often reduced him to make to do me a pumps that so much that was enough for doing me him to come hard and to lick will pass her/it to dampen her/it to duty.

  Embraces, kisses, whispers, words, tenderness, for me they didn't exist anymore, I found her useless losses of
time.

  As they were of the losses of time the first appointments.

  That is it is not, that I always think about the sex, or better perhaps yes, but it is not that my life is done only and exclusively of that.

  I also like to go out to dinner, to go to the cinema or things of the kind, only that before, during or after having done her it owes us to be the sweep, therefore if it happened that one per second or third appointment didn't give her/it for me yet, I labeled her/it as sfigata and I sent her/it to cagare. I didn't have time to lose with the prudes.